This college girl is still here and alive! Busy as every. Opportunities are jumping up all over the place and I am just trying to take it all in, figure out what is best for me, and get my crap together for when I graduate!
I know that sometimes things can come up in our lives that we have no control over, but there is one thing that I know… If you keep going after that one thing you want more than ever, you can do it. It may not happen for a long time, but I think you can get there.
For me? I’ve told you guys a little bit about my story…
I was never one of those kids that grew up knowing what they wanted to do.
When I was a kid I loved to:
- Read & go to the library. I would go every week if I could. I’d load up with at least 10 books, read them all in one week, and be begging my mom or grandma to take me back so I could get more books.
- Play soccer. I didn’t get to play on a team until I was 14ish. Reasons behind that is a whole other blog post. But by the time I finally go to play I was the kid that new nothing. Sure I had fun for those few weeks I played, but lets be honest… I was 14, new nothing about the rules of soccer, just knew that I had fun kicking the ball around and playing. I had no technique, no skill, and I was out of shape.
- Side note- I have no idea why I went off on that rant. Point being- I loved playing soccer, but playing mostly with family outside in our backyard. :)
- I loved being on the computer. Typing was something I was really good at. (Thank you Mavis Beacon) I was on this homeschool forum online where I could chat with other homeschool kids about all kinds of stuff. I made connections- hence why I probably love blogging now. :)
- I had fun doodling, and loved all kinds of art stuff even though I was never good at one particular thing.
- I thought photography was awesome. But never got into it.
So my point is.. I never knew what I wanted to do. I didn’t grow up wanting to be a teacher, a doctor, or anything like that. I had a brief moment of insanity where I thought I wanted to be a lawyer. I took one online intro to law class and didn’t even finish it. haha :)
I still remember sitting out on the back porch one day during my senior year. I had printed out all of the degrees that CSU offered. I went through all of the pages and crossed out things I knew I didn’t want to do, and circled things I liked. I remember wanting to cry and feeling hopeless. I didn’t know what I wanted to do. Things I circled were things like Interior Design, Photography, and Marketing. (surprise surprise I ended up where I am now, right?)
So, when I graduated from high school I was 17. I didn’t really have friends outside of cousins. Nothing was really keeping me in Colorado. So I applied to a Bible College in St. Louis, Missouri.
I went there for one year. I look back at that year now and I am just amazed that my parents spent all that money and let me go there. I mean, I was their oldest daughter, 17 years old, yes I was responsible but wow. St. Louis is a long ways from Loveland, Colorado.
I only went there for a year, and during that year I made a lot of friends, and started to learn a little more about myself. Gosh, I look back and I get embarrassed. I was so immature. I had no clue what I was doing. I took some things so seriously and now I’ve grown up and realized those things don’t even matter. I like to think of that year as my high school senior year. Because I turned 18 when that year was over (my birthday is in June), and all the things in that college year were so… HIGH SCHOOL. :) You know what I mean.
So I moved back to my parents. Who were now in Houston, as you know. And I ended up staying because… 1) I didn’t want to go back to the drama. 2) I was starting to realize how much money it was costing my parents. 3) There was this cute boy I was starting to fall for…. you remember the story.
So I started going to school in Houston. Went for Marketing. Business was something that I just grew up learning about because of my dad. He is a CFO and has his MBA, he’s a smartie. :) So going into the business field was just something I went into because it was familiar. After completing my basics I transferred to University of Houston.
And I HATED it.
This post is getting really super long so I am going to finish it up tomorrow. Don’t worry, I’m writing it now, so you can be sure it will be up. :)
If you read this whole post. You are truly amazing.
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I guess I’m truly amazing :) I’m the person who thought they always knew what they wanted but changed halfway through school, haha. Can’t wait to hear the rest!
It’s not fair that we’re expected to pick something for the rest of our lives at 18. how can you know what all is out there?!
I’m almost 33, and I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up! I’ve tested the water in a few careers and found one I like, but who know if that’s what I’ll end up doing forever. I think it’s harder for artistic types of people. It’s scary to try to make a living in the arts, and usually our hearts aren’t made for office jobs.
I never knew what I wanted to be either. I convinced myself the answer was social work and got a degree in it but as of now I never want to work it it again!
What cute pictures of you!! And I always thought I knew I wanted to be a nurse. Yeah that didn’t work out. I think that’s normal.