*This blog post today is from my heart and may be too intense, crazy, hopefully inspiring, but probably a mixture of all. Consider yourself warned.*
Have you ever heard the quote, “Let your past make you better, not bitter?” Have you ever truly processed that quote?
Lately I’ve found myself in a state of wondering, learning, and growing up.
Ever since I was little I have always struggled with making good friends. … Now let me explain that.
I have always had friends. And they were good people. I didn’t ever get in with the “wrong crowd,” in all actuality the groups I’ve always hung out with have been the “good” crowd, and I’ve been the cautious one even with them.
Sometimes I fear that I’m too uptight, and not willing to go out there and just let myself do whatever I want. I’m in my 20s, right? Why do I always have to be the mature, professional one?
Yet…. I am. Sure, I have fun, but when I compare myself *BIG MISTAKE* to other friends in their 20s, I wonder if I am missing out on some things.
Back to the friends thing… So i’ve always had friends, but its always been hard for me to become really good friends with people. And oftentimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me? Has anyone ever had this thought? I’ve gone so far as to ask hubs, “Is there really something weird about me? Do I have a mental illness that no one is telling me about?” Yes. I’ve asked those questions. Because my whole life, its been like this…
There are friends you have.
But you’re always the one left out.
They talk with each other more.
No one is truly your best friend.
You put yourself out there, but then … they hang out together but you didn’t get the phone call.
So why am I talking about all of this? I guess because I just needed to let it all out.
My husband has been the only best friend I have ever had that I know will never leave me, never judge me, will always want to hang out with me, will tell me everything that is going on whether its good or bad. He loves to hang out with me, and gets so happy when we both get home from work/school and see each other.
He’s been the answer to my prayers.
Yes, I still long for that girl “best friend,” but ya know what, maybe that will come later? For now, God’s provided me with who I needed, and my best friend has all my attention. :) You’d think we just started dating or somethin’… sheesh. ;)
But now, remember that quote? “Let Your Past Make You BETTER, Not Bitter.”
So, how can this make me better?
– I can be more aware about friends around me.
– Be thankful for what I have.
– Help other girls that struggle with making friends.
– Watch for those ones that get left out. And as a teacher, this is something I am always watching out for with my kids. And then, trying to get them to be a part, and make friends.
“Let your past make you BETTER, not bitter.”
How can you apply this to your life?
Whats happened in your past that has caused you to become bitter?
How can you turn that around? Make that thing turn you into something BETTER.
“Let your past make you better, not bitter.”